3 weeks ago my best friend was home for Christmas. we had talked before about me writing a blog post for her website. I hadn’t followed through though, mostly because I was scared. Scared to feel. Scared to share my deepest secrets with strangers. Even more scared to share those secrets with my best friends. I told her I’d do the blog. Didn’t commit to a time frame. We sat and talked for a while, drank coffee, laughed. Almost got matching tattoos… a normal sunday, right?
I’ve known her since kindergarten. Mary Margaret. my longest, deepest friendship. She inspires me in ways no other person can. unexpectedly, I went home after our coffee date and started writing immediately. 45 minutes later and I emailed her with a finished blog post.
I wasn’t expecting the response it got. 3,000 hits in less than 3 days. that number boggles my mind. friends I hadn’t talked to in years were reaching out. professors from college were expressing their pride to me. I was floored.
this weight I never knew I had, immediately lifted from my shoulders.
initially, it kind of scared me that literally everyone in my life suddenly knew I struggled with an eating disorder, depression, anxiety. but the shame melted away and I was free. it was like walking on eggshells with a smile. I am the happiest I have ever been. everyday I have more energy.
so I have started a blog, mostly for myself, but anyone can read. I have missed writing. and getting my thoughts out is so freeing. I encourage everyone to do it. you can see my first blog post “background” from earlier this month.