yesterday was Valentine’s day. I spent all day in bed.
oh, I had plans. my body was just not cooperating.
It’s been over 2 months of doctor’s saying they don’t know whats wrong with me, and living in pain everyday, it messes with my mind. Yesterday it caught up to me. I had a mini pity-party. Took a couple of pain pills. Then I started reflecting. I reflected on how lucky I am to have access to health care, pain medicine, and an amazing support system of family and friends. I thought about Valentine’s day. I looked through facebook at all the pictures of couples and how happy they are. I wasn’t bitter. I’m single but I am happy. For the first time in my life I have found love within myself.
What I have learned recently is to live a life with more compassion for others, you will live a more fulfilling life. Smile at someone, take a minute out of your day to help a man find the elevator, help the disabled man put cream in his coffee. First of all- it’s good karma. But second, showing love to others is the first step in showing more love to yourself.
I know I’ve said this before, but DO NOT change who you are. You are beautiful just the way you are. If you are single, someone will find you who loves every piece of you. If you are with someone who doesn’t appreciate you- it’s time to move on. There are so many people in your life who love you because you are YOU. Keep being you. We love you.